Update! :)

I guess it has been a while since i have written in my new age diary, so i thought that this would be a good time to unravel the recent, crazy events in my life. Boy! It has been a very stressful, crazy, and intense last couple of months. If you didn't know, i sprained my ankle last year at green acre around november time, and now just recently my clumsy butt decided to hurt my knee because i guess my other leg was feeling lonely :). The worst part is is that i hurt my knee colliding into Rashaun while playing hide and seek or more specifically, cops and robbers in the dark. So thats number one in my life right now, my knee injury lol. There have been some lows, well a lot of lows. Let's just say that one of my closest friends, well i guess i thought it was my best friend, we haven't been having the greatest last couple of months. Im not gonna lie, im not too happy with the situation, but it is what it is. What can you do? Right? I guess blogging is more of an entrance to conversation than cell phones are now a days....you would think not, you would think the other way, but i guess some of us forgot how to use a cell phone. Not that im a very technologically savvy person, but i guess i can figure how to dial a number ey? I guess its just funny and amazing how one person can change so dramatically in a matter of months due to spontaneous events and people i guess would be the best way to say it. But im still here, same person just waiting on my friend to come back, so i guess ill just be waiting for however long it takes. As my mom always tells me, detach myself an it will all come together. The love that you have for others who you consider blood will never die out thats for sure. :) So that's number 2. Now for number 3! Ill be leaving Green acre soooo sooon! Im terrified ! Absolutely and utterly terrified. Still not sure whats going to happen, what state im going to end up in or for that matter what school, but i guess God will put me where im supposed to be. Indiana or Atlanta? Hmmmm....seems like a mindless decision, but let me tell you, its one of the hardest decisions that i have ever had to make, and im not liking it at all. Actually it sucks. Wow! It seems like my life has been hell the last couple of months, but honestly i have no regrets and im loving my life right now. Awesome friends, amazing family, and priceless memories in the past year and some months. How much better could it get. :)!!!!!!!!

Krumping

Ok so im a little excited so i thought i should use my new age public diary to share. So i have been into krumping for a while now, if you don't know what krumping is, well type into you tube and experience it for yourself, its awesome! Anyways, tizrizzo, jsquad, krump kings...all amazing! Now that i have kami by my side, who also is into krumping, we have decided to start it, form a routine, and perform it at the talent show! Now, normally i would never ever and i mean never ever do this, because, well, a stage and people that exceed a certain number...not really my piece of pie. But, if anybody knows me, dancing is my passion and my life. Anything from belly dancing to hip hop to salsa and latin music, and my new fascination of course, krumping. It's the one thing that truly makes me happy, especially with a lot of stress, krumping is perfect...Anger management on the dancefloor, it can't get any better. Im super ecstatic to start this...now i have to get kami into a routine of practicing haha. i love you kamikaze. krump krump krump here we come. Now, don't get me wrong, this is going to be a challenging "journey," but an exciting one at that. Bonnie and Narsha were able to see a sneak preview at our krumping, and they found it entertaining, so that's a good start. But let me just say this, were going to be decked out..white mask, black hoodie, black pants, the whole shebang! It's going to be a performance you don't want to miss, especially because its me and kami performing, the too goofballs of the century. I hope we don't burst out into laughter on stage. We only have about 2 months to work on it, so expect some blog updates about this one..it is now become my hobby and my time consuming project, especially now that its winter and i actually will have the time to do it. Ok so now im done talking about krumping...i hope that everyone had an amazing day like i did, full of laughter and friends! I looove all of you! Peace in the middle east (literally!) keep praying for Iran!!!

"Let go and Let God" By meeee AGAIN haha!

Love, when attained only through physical expression will lead to discord and strife.
Let God be your heart!

Happiness, when attained through material possessions, may only lead to envy, jealously and hatred.
Let God be your joy!

The eye when used to only obtain earthly knowledge, may only lead to unholy thoughts.
Let God be your eyes!

The tongue, when used only to speak ungodly words will hide the path of spiritual enlightenment.
Let God be your words!

God will purify your heart and sanctify your soul.
Let the love that cannot be returned dissolve.

Let go and let God
and your spirit will receive another chance!

"Love" By Meeeeeee

Love is an indescribable emotion that can lead to a path of sin or a path of worship.
Love that is damnable, ungodly, vile and amiss can only lead to pain and suffering in the eyes of God.
The Love that once made the heart grow in fondness and happiness can now only heel hatred, yet the heart can still sense a trivial trace of love still present.
But to return to that morally degrading physical feeling would only greatly create a void in the heart that could never be filled by any other and cause it to grow stronger.

Lettin go may feel unattainable and impossible,
Establishing a sense of stability, unimaginable and ludicrous.
This yearning for an ungodly love has demised.

But the love for God cannot be stopped and cannot wait.

"I've Checked Into Rehab" By MEEE!

I've checked into a state of peace.
The lovespell that once consumed me has died out.
The anger, the despair, the tears are no longer present.
My Guardian Angel protected me with a ring of guidance that no diamond on my left finger could have cured.
I've checked into rehab.

I've checked into a state of happiness.
The laughing, the smiles, the speeding heartbeat for a physical, mortal man has departed from my heart.
The forgiving, my Beloved, purified my true heart and sanctified my once innocent spirit.
I've checked into rehab.

What once felt so right took a left turn into a dark and lonely alley.
My life was raped away, but my spirit survived the triumphant test that momentarily disabled my conscious thoughts.

I've checked into rehab.
But this disease has been cured.
I was sent a divine blessing,
A second chance at life.

My favorite flower...and my favorite prayer.

"The greatest bestowal in the world of existence is a tranquil heart, and it is impossible for man to obtain a tranquil heart save thru the good pleasure of the Lord. That is, man may so adorn the temple of his being with lofty attributes and philanthropic deeds as to be pleasing at the Threshold of the Almighty. This is the only Path and there is no other Path. My point is this: Let all your thoughts, you ideals, your aims and purposes revolve day and night around one common object -- that is to live in accord with the good pleasure of the Lord. Then all the foors of felicity will be opened before your face, you will become succesful in all your undertakings, and you will be confirmed in all your accomplishments. The basic principle is the good pleasure of the Lord: and the good pleasure of God is obtained thru a tranquil heart, and the tranquility of the heart is only gained by living in accord with the divine teachings and exhortations. When a person attains to this station he is contented and peaceful. Then he will become prosperous in all affairs and enter into paradise. This station is joy succeeded by joy, confidence after confidence and Paradise after Paradise. Having reached this exalted station man lives in Paradise while upon this earth, is in Paradise when he leaves this world. His heart is in Paradise, his spirit is in Paradise and he is encircled by Paradise."

Close-ups of flowers and plants in Haifa...compliments of MUA!